Is it possible for a person to feel gratitude, sadness, excitement, sadness, blessings, sadness, thankfulness, sadness, sadness, and sadness all at the same time? I didn’t ask for any of these changes that have occurred over the past year in my life, but clearly God had other plans for Lane and myself. I continue to ask God and probably will never stop, “why my husband Lord? Why my son’s father Lord? Why this disease Lord? Why my happiness Lord? Why these obstacles Lord?” Then I constantly continue to remind myself, this is just a temporary holding place for a life filled with complications and things we don’t understand only to bring you closer to your true love, our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
For those that don’t know, I lost my best friend of 26 years and the father of my teenager on January 19, 2016. Our faith was so strong we never thought this carpenter man, great father & husband, dedicated employee of Cherokee Christian School, fantastic true friend to many, God loving and generous man would ever be taken from us. God had other plans! In May of 2015 we were hit with an unbelievable diagnosis of stage four pancreatic cancer and he was given 9 months to live with treatment and three months without. Obviously, we just wanted more time with him and time to be given a miracle. I spent a lot of sleepless nights just trying to figure out a cure. I would get up in the middle of the night and call cancer centers and plead with them for help. I put him on a strict diet, juiced every meal, and prayed, prayed, prayed. My door was open 24 hours for people that would come in and pray over our home and family. We would get a glimpse of hope every so often then a set back and this went on for eight months only to be hit with reality in the ninth. This was beyond my control and I felt helpless, but I am grateful that I know he is living a pain free life with our creator. Now as I grieve our loss, I am experiencing reality and different pressures of life. The pressures that come from being husbandless and my son being fatherless, one of which is financial. Which has forced me to make the decision to leave a place that has brought me great friendships, awesome support, lots of love and seven years of stability.
I cannot say enough about Healthsprout as a company and the man behind it all, Dr. Eric Richards. I love my Healthsprout family, but I must do what is best for my current situation. So, with great sadness I must say GOODBYE. I have accepted a position with AMAC (American Medical Accounting and Consulting) in East Cobb as their Administrative/Office Manager/Bookkeeper. I am excited for this new challenge but am sad at the same time. Please continue to pray us and this new endeavor. I need strength, success and security. Most of all, I need God to continue to be omnipresent in my life and Lane’s.
I am grateful for the support and prayers from every one of you and I hope that this is not goodbye forever but just a new chapter of success for everyone involved. Thanks to all for being my friend and most of all my prayer warriors. I am on Facebook and Instagram if you want to connect with me as Loree Emrich Tengzelius (Facebook) and loree_tengzelius (Instagram). I will be working out a two week notice so I look forward to saying goodbye to each of you individually over the next couple of weeks. Love and Hugs to all!
And from us at HealthSprout – we will miss you immensely, you are irreplaceable, and the gap will be noticed forever. But, we want you to be able to thrive for you and Lane, so we will pray for your success in this new chapter. God Bless! – Dr. E and the rest of the team